Today is the fifth anniversary of the day that Ross and I met.
If you look back on the record of that meeting, there's nothing in it that would suggest that it was more than a fabulous Pride weekend shag.
The past few years, we've marked the day by some sort of hand-fasting commitment. Earlier this year, I said to Ross that I would also like to mark the occasion with some sort of stock-taking. We've been together for five years. Is it right? Do we want to continue? What are the pros and cons, ups and downs?
In the event nothing happened.
Ross clammed up on me.
I'm feeling sad, frustrated, angry, lonely and frightened by turns.
The day has passed. We've not hand-fasted. I'm not in a relationship at present. I don't think that he realises how important this is to me.